...i can't look away!!!!!

Seriously......i started to watching this awful movie tonight, which i later found out was based (loosely) on true events in australia where tourists would break down on this lonely highway to be rescued by a Crocodile Dundee kind of guy, only for him to turn into a psychopath who tortures them. I kept trying to turn the channel, but then i kept turning it back for one second at a time to see what was happening next!! How sick is that?? i was totally disturbed through the whole thing, hoping they would get away from this awful man only to find out at the end that there was no real happy ending. It was graphic and violent and totally disturbing and i am sitting here wondering why i kept having to turn the channel back?? i actually, at one point, called chris in to take the remote and help me. He took it, then handed it back after a few minutes saying with a knowing nod 'Sharon, you watch what you want'.....arg! ok FINE--i want to watch the psycho! no i don't! yes i do! NO!! so, yup-watched the end, turned out to be called wolf creek....ever heard of it?? i am sitting here now very disturbed and am making sure that my doors and windows are locked. man--all the scary movies bombard you at halloween don't they???

Little Bear and Superman

The superman costume was originally bought for Elliot - but Isaac loved the idea of being a superhero - and though the legs were like knickers on him.....he loved it. This was yesterday at isaacs playschool halloween party. He had a great time running around in the gym with the rest of the kids, but i have issues with what junk they feed them at these parties--why hotdogs, chips, and cupcakes?? As parents, we all had to bring something assigned to us - for me, it was juice. But why couldn't we have buns, meat,carrots, apples and ok-the cupcakes were so good and i love the mom who brought the mini-cupcakes so my kids didn't have suger overload from the massive ones. But seriously--i kept saying, its only today, they don't eat like this normally.....sigh.

My little Diaper Heads..

i love that these 2 boys have a sense of humor and are starting to distinguish what would be pretty hilarious! The diaper on the head was Elliots idea....and big brother confirmed...'yup! thats funny! let's do it!'

My friend Cristin.....

....had a birthday last thursday!! We had a great dinner and her favorite dessert (favorite as far as i know, but how can a girl have only ONE favorite??? i'm sure she has more!). But Cristin has become a really great friend to me these past few years as we watch our kids grow up together. She is the most conscientious and thoughtful friend...and her husband commented to me tonight that Cristin will never say a bad thing about another person...and i can confirm that.

When she was pregnant, we met at Jitters coffee bar where she told me the news about Olivias arrival...and 3 weeks later, i brought her back to the same coffee place, same seat and told her that i was pregnant with Isaac!! So, we have some pretty special history...and i love her to pieces.

Sunday with the boys.....

Its been raining and raining......so we have been playing inside alot! Today Chris and i organized in a few places around the house - that always feels good to do that once in awhile--like, i de-cluttered all the pictures on my fridge to only a few...took down all isaacs art (which is lovely but takes up ALOT of room!) and i find now when i go into the kitchen, i breath alot easier...weird eh? To realize that fridge actually is white!!

We played in the rain, took a ride on the golf cart around the property, played in the new castle (chris put a sheet over top -so today it was a top secret hide-out!!) and went to grandma and uppa's house for dinner tonight...so it was an eventful day.






So-life is good at the moment. We are still stressing abit over the month off in december whether we will have the finances or idea to do something fun! The last 2 years have been a bit of a struggle since we have totally dropped one income....funny how an extra grand per month in maternity pay really does make a huge difference!! hmm..funny..not!! So--maybe we will just end up staying home, taking short road trips...maybe a motorhome will present itself and we can hit the open road with no itinerary, but we won't be doing it in the van (well, i won't be.... willingly anyways....). This is all a stage..i know this...because in my mind, i know that one day i will be wealthy..just not now because i want to play with my kids.

and that sits well with my soul.

life....sweet life (warning: Graphic Pictures)

Life feels a little on the edge the last few days..since thursday 4:45pm to be exact since Chris had his hovercraft accident. The blade behind him that propels the hovercraft forward (which is attached to the motor which is attached to the base of the hovercraft) came off and hit him in the back at 4500 rotations a minute. The motor came off the base and landed where he was sitting too, so who knows what exactly happened.....but he got about 15-17 stitches in the ER that night and has been going full tilt all weekend with the staff retreat because he has been feeling fine. Today is the 3rd day and everyone knows that after a car accident, you may feel fine for the first few days but that third day will be more painful if you've been pushing it the first 2 days--so here we are--3rd day and he honestly is a wreck. He started walking with his left side tensed yesturday to compensate for the pain so today his body aches from that, his wound leaked through the bandages onto the couch last night while he was sleeping, he feels lightheaded, exhausted...etc. So i have been pulling out all my first aid, but its not as fun when you are working on your partner and not a stranger!


The point of my blog today is just to get down on paper that i am feeling like i have had a layer of protection stripped from my senses. i have felt safe for so long with this man and to know that he was an instant, a movement, an inch from something worse happening on that hovercraft makes me feel pretty shaky. I feel shaky....i don't feel like things are ok yet--and this feeling worries me. Is it the little voice saying that things aren't ok? or is it just me being a worried partner? i love him more than anything in the world and he makes my life beautiful. So..i am feeling grateful but still very much on edge. My mom sent me some insight in an email yesterday saying:

...your heart is in your throat and you feel that you have been extra blessed and spared a really bad time...and it’s easier to keep that gratitude feeling when you know exactly what it is.

Thanksgiving Monday

We had our friends Dan and Karen, Mike and Christie and their kids comes over monday afternoon for a hike to go geocaching and a potluck--everything was so good! We had 8 adults and 9 kids total at dinner (yup-we were outnumbered!) But we had lots of laughs.....it was a great thanksgiving monday.
Finding the Geocache at Skutz Falls - lots of treasure on this one! There were 2 toonies, swim tickets, a little kermit and gonzo, a compass....more that i can't remember-but it was a cool one to find with the kids since there were lots of kids stuff in it!
This is me with Christie and Karen....Karen, as you can tell, is the real serious one
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Walking Boy!!

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