Seriously--i realize he has been sick the last week and will be more whiney and high maintenance than usual-but where is my sympathetic bone? After a long day with isaac being so demanding, watching WAY more tv than i would ever allow in normal mode (but it is a coping mechanism for me!!) - last night i took off to town with Merrin and Court and we had such a great time - we went to the pool, shopping, slurpees, even vacuumed the van - i laughed alot, more than i had in the last week, thats for sure! Those nights seem to come around just in time before you lose it if you stay amy longer in the company of a toddler!!
So, last night Isaac wakes up in the middle of the night yelling he wants eggs! What the $@#*Y$??? Who eats eggs in the middle of the NIGHT!!??? I can tell you, i was not loving this little baby of mine very much, i actually had visions of throwing him out the window of his bedroom just to make him be quiet! Who does he think he is yelling in the middle of the night for us to break out our aprons to cook him a meal just because he didn't eat anything during the day??!! Apparently last nights 'break' wasn't long enough! Those feelings have carried over to today and i find myself looking at him with distain and exhaustion thinking '.....', actually i don't know what i am thinking..maybe the words 'survive!!' survive!' I am doing what i think i should to keep us carrying on-we went for a long walk in the double trailer (its awesome, i can zip it up and poof -no kids!)
i'm sure, as you can tell, i am still quite beside myself and literally on 'coping mode' - as i type, isaac is quietly waiting in the livingroom for me to put "Cars" on for him.
There are weeks that are wonderful and his company is quite pleasant and i enjoy where i am and who i am to him....but this last week - i am not.
sigh...yes, this is a negative post, but why should i lead anyone to believe or think i lead a charmed life 100 percent of the time?? ;-)
