The night was brutal. On average every hour and a half he would be shaken awake and would ride out the shaking for 15 seconds.
I now just make sure he knows I am there because holding onto him does nothing. We lock eyes until it's over, his searching mine for answers , mine looking back with just love and empathy, wishing it was me enstead.
And then he just closes his eyes and falls away into sleep again until we meet again in another hour.
He is calm and beautiful and I want to scream but I try to mirror him because really, what does screaming ever accomplish?
